And get behind the wheel anyway.
My car Christine was written off at the end of June. Then just under a month ago I was driving a car that I had borrowed from someone and was rear ended.
To say I’m jumpy from the whole experience would be an understatement. I worry about more car accidents and while I haven’t been staying away from being behind the wheel as evidenced by the long road trip recently taken. However, Laverene is our car and if something happens I can deal with it.
My parents have left my dad’s car for me to use if I want to. I could not be having Kevin bring me to work, I could be taking care of my own stuff but I am too nervous to get behind the wheel. At least of someone else’s vehicle.
Of course now I have to face this fear I have by driving the car in the driveway to a few events in the next week. As Kevin has to handle 2 pick ups starting on Monday so it’s unrealistic to have him strapped into a van taking everyone all around to their various must be places. Kids have school, I have work and other committements as I move from my current career path to the one I feel I must be moving to.
So now I am having to tackle my fear of driving someone else’s car. Being responsible for someone else’s property in an act where you don’t control all of the varibles. I am having anxiety over having to do this. Hell my hands shake at the thought.
Tomorrow morning after breakfast has been made and kids and husband have been kissed and I head out the door for a full day event I will climb behind the wheel of a car I have driven only once but that my mother continues to encourage me to drive to work and go on with my day.
I’m pretty sure that if I can get through driving it tomorrow…as long as fate puts the finger of boom on someone else.